A Song For Myself

Sometimes You Can't Make It Own Your Own (U2)

Tough
You think you've got the stuff
You're telling me and anyone you're hard enough
You don't have to put up a fight
You don't have to always be right
Let me take some of the punches for you tonight

Listen to me now
I need to let you know
You don't have to go it alone
And it's you when I look in the mirror
And it's you when I don't pick up the phone
Sometimes you can't make it on your own
Sometimes you can't make it on your own.


You don't always have to do it on your own, gracie girl.
Just let go and let the magic unfolds itself in the end.

This enlightenment comes between the last episode of Jewel In The Palace and first 4 episodes of Ugly Betty. And with the strength of my Higher Power and my twisted sense of humor (not to mention my CD collection...)
Go I.

Gaaah...lagi bosen nih ama kerjaan. Pengen LIBUR aja deh bawaannya. Untung aja weekend besok rada panjang nih.

Umm..mo ngapain ya?

Pastinya saya bakal tidur banyak. Balas dendam ceritanya..setelah tiap hari bangun subuh demi gak telat ke kantor.

Pastinya juga bersantai ria dan makan yang enak-enak.

Anyway, now I have to go back to work. Gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!!!

That cat is so darn lucky.

In my whole entire life I never had a real enemy.
I don't know why, maybe I was too nice.
Maybe I was a coward.
Or maybe a mixture of both hehehehe
(a nice coward? gimme a break here...)

Well, today I realized that one of my co-teachers hates me. Heheheh..
She snapped at me for no reason and refused to talk to me at all.
I don't know what's her problem.
And you know what? I don't give a damn.

You see, before I would always try to make things nice with other people.
I would always be the first one to initiate peace and harmony.
Somehow I want everybody to be happy.

Well... not this time.
Now I have my own limit and boundaries.
If someone's angry with me and she won't confront me about it...
then I don't want to think about it at all.
It's not my problem.

As long as I know that I did not do anything to hurt them,
I don't give a damn if people hate my guts.

A new start

Sometimes a good girl needs to take a break from the goody-goody land.

To be the real deal. That's the quest for me.
This time around...

I will tell you what I want.
I will tell you what I think.
I will tell you what I know or don't know...and I won't hide behind a second-hand theology or other nice theories people like to use as their goody-goody masks.

Without any fear of being judged or left alone.